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Showing posts with label Random. Show all posts

31 December 2011

幹他奶奶的。

幹幹幹!!
好歹我也好久沒用手提電腦上網了
一上線就給它欺負哼
電腦死不夠力lag之外,每打下幾粒字就跟我玩123木頭人;
還真有夠他奶奶的哼



又要倒數跨年了喲,有啥節目?
我只是希望能看一看偉大的煙花… 我沒有一次跨年是可以看到煙花的呃
新年願望嘛 就希望大家開開心心快快樂樂平平安安健健康康天下太平……
除了這些,我想我也沒什麼偉大的願望了



今年經歷過太多太多的事
不想成長都被逼得快快長大  今年的我還認識了以前沒有的勇氣和堅強 雖然眼淚還是很不爭氣,
每次都不由自主的掉下來 可是我都走過來了 不是嗎?
多了嘮叨,因為我真的不想那些小過我的走上不歸路。
多了關心,是因為我不想看見一個平凡的家庭變成一個什麼都沒有的家。



這些日子,錢 是萬能的神。
俗語說,有錢能使鬼推磨。 不是嗎?
沒做工的日子真的好難過;只靠著母親一點點的收入卻要養起五口的生活。
我服了。 徹徹底底的,敗給了『錢』。

即使看到前男友,依稀看到那時甜蜜的時光。 怎麼辦?
所幸我的離開,看清了他所有的面貌。 花花公子啊!
能夠看清,我真的謝天謝地了。謝謝我自己做了明智的選擇。


這幾天真的都在忙著國名服務的事,既驚奇又緊張…

最近,做了身體檢查。我的身體都很健康。只不過肥了點、膽固醇高了點、血糖高了點、還是個地中海貧血症的帶病者。不要怕,接近我你不會有危險的。它不像A字頭的性病,通過血的接觸就能傳染。地中海貧血症只不過是個家族遺傳的貧血症。
我的責任就是暫停它的傳播,也就是遺傳。所以就注定了我這輩子都沒的結婚生子…有也是只能收養小孩,反正這世界上還有很多被父母拋棄的小孩要讓人收養。我很樂意。

最重要的是我才發現原來我是O型血。
我……真的可以捐血救人了嗎?



煩了國民服務,又要煩大學。要上大學,真的是沒有像偶像劇裡那麼容易勒
在我們馬來西亞,還要一個一個去銀行買申請大學表格的pin code。再一個一個寄出去申請。天,光是想到我就覺得可怕。
而且我對我的成績非常沒自信。想要考到我想去的Asunta護士學院我就真的很緊張。
只希望我能討到那裡吧。我真的沒錢都大學,更不想跟政府借什麼PTPTN。
算了吧,過一天算一天。

網路上什麼都是虛擬的,笑臉笑聲名字甚至是感情。


終。xx

30 September 2011

Fryday morning.


Everything seems so wrong.
what the crack is happening? 
just because BIO teacher pissed me off then I didn't even wanted to study BIO.
couples, just because of a little thingy then can fight whole day.
the class t-shirt thingy, they just looked like very beh song me. seriously.
okay la i know its my fault for making it to have a long time to make the shirt. I'd ever tried to pull the due date nearer. but they say cannot ba. 
the first shop i went to, need 31 bucks for each shirt. you think i want collect extra money for you ka?
i worked so hard to get the sample of the shirt, asking designer to make the sample, search for that shop...
you know ka, i dont even want a single cent of allowance. 
i'd wasted my precious once-only time.
to settle everything.
aaaaaaaaaaaaa.

its just so wrong.
now they make lots of mistakes and everything just not the actual thing i want. 
what the heck?
haihh, a great challenge for me. 
i'll  never  take  this  kind  of  job  anymore.
seriously.

I'm currently busy with my life.
waking up in the morning in survive.
study and play hard in school.
went home and LUNCH is a MUST.
Drama drama drama.
Tuitions tuitions tuitions.
and i didnt even study appropriately for the very important Trial Exam.
but i think i can do well la, *except bio and phy and sejarah and bm and addmaths.
its quite alot, isn't it? TROLOLOLOL.

its bio paper one exam tomorrow and i decided to bring gun and tembak all.
Mandarin is my language so im gonna study it so i wont fail it. 
if not, im a super duper #failure. 
baii !



-please la, if you want talk bad about me,
 talk behind me la.
 and don't ever get caught by me.
 if you wanna talk bad about me. ;)


11 September 2011

TGISaturday.


heh. I forgot to put title on my previous blog post. heh, but nevermind. 
Who cares? HEHEHh.

i rather not coming home. i want to smoke and i want drunk all night.
but somehow something prevented me to do it all. IDK why.

I know its not good yet i need to fight with my heart and im always the loser.

phone broke down :/ haihh, need go reformat liao.

yay daddy want buy ipad. yay yayyyy can forever rebloggg on tumblaaaaa. <3

i wanted to change the tumblr layout to those alike with those awesome blogs one but i lazzy. so, yeahh.

I miss Grace. I miss hugging her.

I miss everyone in my life.

The boy very hardworking at the place i work, we called him handsome boy but i call him sengboii la. x3
hehh, he talk his past with us just now. 
he miss his mom. and his mom had past away and he was used to very close to her and he looking her die inside and he cannot save her.
I feel so sad. he seems want to cry but he smile at me instead.
He miss her. Like seriously.
he work at saloon from morning until evening, and night work at waiter. 

he looks awesome and strong. yeah.

im gonna reformat my phone tomorrow.

oh yeah i wanna hug him so much just now, like a boss. seriously.


super random? 

k baii.

06 September 2011


Meet the rainbow. 
Its been a while in my life to see rainbows with my EYES. lol.

heh, life treats me good as I able to open my eyes every morning and work for an awesome day. 

English lesson this morning was essay writing with the guide from teacher. LOLL
I baru realized Keith's English is so duh wth dayumm good. 
Okay la I admit my english is very poor. POOR vocab la, poor grammar la. haihh.

JUMP.

Suddenly.
I miss everything. The faces and the laughter. Perhaps it was cause by loneliness ? 
Sometimes I prefer to shuddup when theres no one talking.
SILENT.
totally silent. 
I can think of so many things within these few seconds of silence.

future.. 
too far and yet so near.


and yeahh. I do feel tired for life. Like seriously. 

If that person doesn't appreciate things you did, there's no point standing here waiting him/her than running for catching up the future instead. 

Shalom. Baii.