hi si dia.

i still remember everything that we used to be,
i still remember every moments we spend together.
i still remember incomplete every wishes and promises...

i'm the one who ask to break so yeah..
i might have no right to say this. :)

BUT,
i still wanna type it out 'cause there's no other way to let me express this sucking feeling.

Hey you,
i'm not over  you yet. sorry to say.
but yes, im not over you yet.
i miss you, wanted to call you and text you but my mind told me not to do so, 'cause you're not mine anymore.
i even don't dare to PM you in facebook.
I EVEN don't dare to add you back in facebook, because you're the one who chose to unfriend me.
HMMM..
you deserved someone better and suitable for you...
i'm sorry if i did hurt you before.
and..
i'm glad that you moved on. :)

hope you can get the new HER and live happily ever after.
I wish to attend your wedding too.. if can :)

we can be best friend.. right?

but in the end, i'll be falling in love with you over and over again..

perhaps its better for us to remain this state, you no find me, and i'm fine with no-one-text-period.

i'm sorry for everything and... thank you for everything.

ps: thanks for that girl judging me for having no self-esteem, YOU DON'T KNOW ME . nvm, i usually don't give a damn fuck 'bout it but this time.. o0o  in your face. Fuck you.

x

TGISaturday.

heh. I forgot to put title on my previous blog post. heh, but nevermind. 

Who cares? HEHEHh.

i rather not coming home. i want to smoke and i want drunk all night.

but somehow something prevented me to do it all. IDK why.

I know its not good yet i need to fight with my heart and im always the loser.

phone broke down :/ haihh, need go reformat liao.

yay daddy want buy ipad. yay yayyyy can forever rebloggg on tumblaaaaa. <3

i wanted to change the tumblr layout to those alike with those awesome blogs one but i lazzy. so, yeahh.

I miss Grace. I miss hugging her.

I miss everyone in my life.

The boy very hardworking at the place i work, we called him handsome boy but i call him sengboii la. x3

hehh, he talk his past with us just now. 

he miss his mom. and his mom had past away and he was used to very close to her and he looking her die inside and he cannot save her.

I feel so sad. he seems want to cry but he smile at me instead.

He miss her. Like seriously.

he work at saloon from morning until evening, and night work at waiter. 

he looks awesome and strong. yeah.

im gonna reformat my phone tomorrow.

oh yeah i wanna hug him so much just now, like a boss. seriously.

super random? 

k baii.

IDK,

=/ hey peoples.

IDK what to feel right now. I like him. He like her. But she loves another him. Its just complicated. :( 

She tagged the him in a post in FB and telling everyone she loves him.

awwwww, wonder how the him would feel. heart broken ? :((

He could sing and faking his smile everytime, anytime, anywhere. 

But who ever bother his broken heart ? =| Sorry, but I always make something to avoid you from being emo. So those are my tactics. buahahaha. :D

I hope it works sometime.

+ and and and +

CAN YOU PLEASE STOP LOOKING AT ME USING THAT KIND OF EYES?

it really make me fall deeper. those puppy eyes..... 

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww. *air liur*

-boii, I really hope I don't fall for you but I just can't stop even it really so fuckin damn hurt.

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Today we have PJK period and IDK why I so excited 'bout PJK and even sms to my buddies to ask them to bring PJ shirt and PJ with me wtf.

I'm 165cm, and wtf wtf i grow taller ! :D:D

i can stretch my body for 51 cm, push up 15 times D: and sit up 25. ngaitiii. need more exercise liao.

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simple update.

Peace, 

Chaw.

-Cat

Its just a dream.

 

Yeah, its just a dream. I was sleeping and dreaming for 3 months +.

Now I'm awake and scream everything out. 

My fears, my tears.

Its the 7th day you left me.

Tonight, the stars so bright.

Laughter so high.

And I was thinking bout you again tonight..

I do delete all your messages in my inbox and sent items.

But when I reach PICTURES, I failed to click the 'c' key.

I failed.

The pictures.. When he smile, he acting cute, he peace-ing..

I just can't fade it off from my mind.

Sorry. I need to end this 'cause I'm not perfect for you.

:]

 Tears will rushing out when I listen to our songs. :')

I.. can't shout that I'm over you. 'cause I'm not.

Overall.

 

I.. still missing you.

First of March.

Emo-ness. 

When the little bit of light from the sun, brighten the world,

I'm in the shower for the morning.

I thought everything could goes same.

Wakeup-bath-eat-school.

Yeaaa. and yea, thought-ness.

Reaches class, 

took out my fried rice aka breakfast and eat it.

First period was BIO and I remembered that today its the 1st time I wont feel sleepy in monday's bio class. LOL. *claps.

Other periods goes finely as well.

After recess time, P.Moral period, 

Sohaimii is having a spotcheck happily.

All discipline teacher aimed our class, ONLY.

Alpha do bring handphones, but why you all pretended to-dint-see-it?

Its too unfair. Even they are top class, please la, be loyal.

Even Gama also kena rampas 3 phones.

Whats wrong with teacher's world?

They aimed our class strongly and i think they collected at least 15 phones?

Its too UNFAIR.

-but what to do, the real side of the world never fair.

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Kays, my phone kena rampas.

After school, I go back home and go to school again after 30mins home.

For netball training.

Needa be so serious. But no coorperation.

I've been doing everything. 

Invite the coach, grab attentions..

I'm just tired doing these.

Why I cant control situations?

Sometimes just feel like f*ck off.

home at 4 and go work at 4.15pm.

Im so tired.

Exhausted.

But i need to be working early cause only 2 workers tonight.

Needa prepare everything like arrange the chairs and tables and blaa ..

Carry heavy stuffs and yeaa ..

Its tiring for a girl. Even I'm strong enough.

Work-work-work.

Done all works and home.

Damn i forgot to bring my key. + my phone kena rampas.

Using XiaoMei's handphone spam call my parents and my sis.

Lucky my mom ans my call. or else I might ending up by sleep at outside.

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+I bleed my toe. and the kayu of the table cucuk in my hand.

I feel so lonely and I need him.

He online few ours ago. but he never wanted to post me a comment or sth else.

Maybe he don't want?

Hahaaa. Guessing , its all my life.

'cause he won't tell me what he is doing or happen.

so everything I can do is just, predicting. :')

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Pm my berry atok on facebook. ;3 since he still online. LOL.

He straight then know I got probs.

waahhaha. 

He said I can't lie. I'm noob in cover lies.

And I always lie to myself.

Yeaaa. I always do.

Lies.

Lied to myself that everything is gonna be alright soon.

Lied to myself that I'm happy.

Lied to myself that I can survive with his little of love.

Lied to myself that I can live without a phone.

Lied to myself that I can not-to-stick-to-him.

...

Sorry, I lied too many things.

Darling Grace also ask me to cry everything out.

yeaa. I cried since Berry say im lie-ing.

and , yeaa , i cry even harder.

Just let the tears do the job.

Bring away everything that i don't need.

and I still can smile , on the morning of the First of March.

She is beautiful. :')

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First of March.

I asked you why is this date so special and I need you to accompany me, at least for this day?

You answered you don't know.

Okayy, imma tell you now.

the 3rd monthsary. 

Yeaa. you won't remember.

Maybe your life is being too busy or craps, you don't want to remember.

-Sorry if you felt im so annoying, I was too good to you. made you don't even want to care of what im thinking or what my mood is. seriously, you don't even want to cheer me up when im no mood.-

I wonder we could pass the 3rd month?

... i really dont know

If you really love me, please, make some effort on me. 

If you really love me, please, show more caring on me.

If you really love me, please, sacrifice 1 hour of sleeping for me.

If you really love me, please, bring your charger along wherever you go.

If you really love me, please, take time to accompany me.

If you really love me, please, don't too shy to show it.

If you really love me, please, take your promises serious.

If you really love me, please, let me know that you loves me.

I wanted to say this all, for long time ady.

This may showed im very annoying, [yeaa, i know that]

 I always try to be understanding before, 

sometimes failed and sometimes success.

I hope we can last longer, but its only after I talk with you about us.

hope our love last till this stage.

Please, take time to talk with me. 

ILY. :')

If we can't hold onto, just leave. :') 

-But I never want this to happen.-

love。

Baii. :')

Life really short. Appreciates eveything in everyway.

Love isn't hard. Appreciates and everything will be okay.

Just finish calling him.

He is sleepin'. LOL. >)

I'm so glad to have him in my life.

He is my noob besar. And Im the noob kechik. ;p

Aiks, so bad baa. I get this penyakit from him. x)

Well, love treats me good today.

I taught everything will be like normal without him.

Mana tau, I felt and wanna stick with him all the time.

We called and see each other in msn wc,

I miss you so much.♥

Boyy, your hair long ady. Need haircut liaww. +my mom x suka laki rambut panjang2. xD

Idk why, how what to say. I JUST fallinlove with your sweet sweet smile.

Kays, promised him to sleep early also. x3

Seriously, I hope everyday can be like today. 

Sweet enough to smooth my day.  

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I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

❤

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Yeahh im fatcat bhaaa. >)

Pak cik ejat x beranak..I l♥ve youuuu.<3 hee.

,love；

Baii☆.