First of March.

Emo-ness. 

When the little bit of light from the sun, brighten the world,

I'm in the shower for the morning.

I thought everything could goes same.

Wakeup-bath-eat-school.

Yeaaa. and yea, thought-ness.

Reaches class, 

took out my fried rice aka breakfast and eat it.

First period was BIO and I remembered that today its the 1st time I wont feel sleepy in monday's bio class. LOL. *claps.

Other periods goes finely as well.

After recess time, P.Moral period, 

Sohaimii is having a spotcheck happily.

All discipline teacher aimed our class, ONLY.

Alpha do bring handphones, but why you all pretended to-dint-see-it?

Its too unfair. Even they are top class, please la, be loyal.

Even Gama also kena rampas 3 phones.

Whats wrong with teacher's world?

They aimed our class strongly and i think they collected at least 15 phones?

Its too UNFAIR.

-but what to do, the real side of the world never fair.

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Kays, my phone kena rampas.

After school, I go back home and go to school again after 30mins home.

For netball training.

Needa be so serious. But no coorperation.

I've been doing everything. 

Invite the coach, grab attentions..

I'm just tired doing these.

Why I cant control situations?

Sometimes just feel like f*ck off.

home at 4 and go work at 4.15pm.

Im so tired.

Exhausted.

But i need to be working early cause only 2 workers tonight.

Needa prepare everything like arrange the chairs and tables and blaa ..

Carry heavy stuffs and yeaa ..

Its tiring for a girl. Even I'm strong enough.

Work-work-work.

Done all works and home.

Damn i forgot to bring my key. + my phone kena rampas.

Using XiaoMei's handphone spam call my parents and my sis.

Lucky my mom ans my call. or else I might ending up by sleep at outside.

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+I bleed my toe. and the kayu of the table cucuk in my hand.

I feel so lonely and I need him.

He online few ours ago. but he never wanted to post me a comment or sth else.

Maybe he don't want?

Hahaaa. Guessing , its all my life.

'cause he won't tell me what he is doing or happen.

so everything I can do is just, predicting. :')

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Pm my berry atok on facebook. ;3 since he still online. LOL.

He straight then know I got probs.

waahhaha. 

He said I can't lie. I'm noob in cover lies.

And I always lie to myself.

Yeaaa. I always do.

Lies.

Lied to myself that everything is gonna be alright soon.

Lied to myself that I'm happy.

Lied to myself that I can survive with his little of love.

Lied to myself that I can live without a phone.

Lied to myself that I can not-to-stick-to-him.

...

Sorry, I lied too many things.

Darling Grace also ask me to cry everything out.

yeaa. I cried since Berry say im lie-ing.

and , yeaa , i cry even harder.

Just let the tears do the job.

Bring away everything that i don't need.

and I still can smile , on the morning of the First of March.

She is beautiful. :')

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First of March.

I asked you why is this date so special and I need you to accompany me, at least for this day?

You answered you don't know.

Okayy, imma tell you now.

the 3rd monthsary. 

Yeaa. you won't remember.

Maybe your life is being too busy or craps, you don't want to remember.

-Sorry if you felt im so annoying, I was too good to you. made you don't even want to care of what im thinking or what my mood is. seriously, you don't even want to cheer me up when im no mood.-

I wonder we could pass the 3rd month?

... i really dont know

If you really love me, please, make some effort on me. 

If you really love me, please, show more caring on me.

If you really love me, please, sacrifice 1 hour of sleeping for me.

If you really love me, please, bring your charger along wherever you go.

If you really love me, please, take time to accompany me.

If you really love me, please, don't too shy to show it.

If you really love me, please, take your promises serious.

If you really love me, please, let me know that you loves me.

I wanted to say this all, for long time ady.

This may showed im very annoying, [yeaa, i know that]

 I always try to be understanding before, 

sometimes failed and sometimes success.

I hope we can last longer, but its only after I talk with you about us.

hope our love last till this stage.

Please, take time to talk with me. 

ILY. :')

If we can't hold onto, just leave. :') 

-But I never want this to happen.-

love。

Baii. :')