新年快樂。

煙花在眼前悄悄滑過。我當時在享受著全身燒焦的雞翅……
沒辦法了，雖然只是看到一點點。我心滿意足了。
長了那麼大，這才只是第二次在晚上自己不跑去睡，想要倒數。
去年是有個人陪著，今年，電腦的輻射比誰都忠誠。
坐在電腦前，看著人們在面書上開心的上傳他們在倒數的狀態，搞得我也很緊張的說啊哈哈

十一點五十五分。
此時此刻，煙花聲好壯觀； 哦不，是壯聲 哈哈
我不要跑出去看煙花，那樣的自己好不矜持哦 -.-
原諒我雄偉的自尊心，讓那珍貴的倒數之夜的煙花能跟我心愛的人一起度過。
好老土哦，我自己的都這麼覺得。

十一點五十八分。

五十九分。

再見了，2011年。你還真的很他嗎的婆媽呢//

12:00 am,
你好啊2012，請多多指教。





2011 的最後一篇，2012 的新開始。

終。xx

聖誕。

聖誕快樂。
是我們家大哥， 耶穌的生日呢 生日快樂！:)

平安夜那晚，我們一家人都參加了晚上的彌撒。
人真的多到 PEOPLE MOUNTAIN PEOPLE SEA -.-
本來打算要到Spring倒數的。朋友都到了勒，不過媽咪不肯，沒辦法 ╮(╯_╰)╭

今天聖誕，
起個大早參加了聖誕彌撒後，就到富麗華買食材，晚上家庭聚會要煮的
看到大家都來了，沒個人沒有我想像中的那麼誠信。
有也只是一些貪吃的人，別人還沒到就已經迫不及待要偷吃。
人家也是忙到進進出出的勒 (╬￣皿￣)凸
不過最後也是圓滿結束啦，只不過今年的聖誕，每個人都好早回家哦 -.-
不知道是在趕些什麼？ 呵呵呵。
我之後還看了變形金剛1和2勒。超好看的誒，我也太慢了哈哈哈哈

老實說，我並沒有很快樂。
自得其樂的每天在sdo隱藏身份捉弄人後大聲的笑到像個瘋婆子一樣。
哈哈哈 每天用男帳號當男同志嚇嚇男玩家 笑死我

最近生活的步伐都加快了許多，每天越來越趕，很像時間都不夠用似的。
很多要做的事都沒做到真的很對不起自己，唉。
沒辦法。我太自大。以為一切都會過去但是我還是很怕去國民服務！！
怕遇到不好的朋友，怕遇到骯髒的床，怕怕………………
我怕很多事情。
依然假裝堅強。

從早上就胃痛了，害我哭了〒▽〒 我的天
再也沒有這麼衰了。
是該說衰嗎？ 還是自作孽自己活該？
如果是我活該，請你針對我而來，你知道的，家人永遠是我第一，尤其是小妹。
看到她跌到、撞到頭、哭得不像樣……我都很心疼。
她……是我的寶。

身份證的芯片壞了，要開BSN戶口開不成，要去身體檢查還遇到有史以來的人山人海。
星期六那天要去做新的身份證，那個地方又沒開…
去教堂小妹被敲到頭，哭成淚人。
我好失敗。

我真的不知道，是我錯還是天看走眼。

終。xx

I had deactivated my 2 out of 3 facebook accounts. 

I have no such time to manage all and i'm wasting my time over there. 

7 of September. 

Today its not the day for peoples around me. 

They were angry, get scolded, disappointments, arguing, fighting, crying, punching... 

I feel bad.

I can only be the listener when they tell their probs to me. 

I cant give any advise because im not a good adviser. 

I cant torture them because im not good at it.

I cant counsel them because im not a counselor.

I only lend them my eyes to see their texts, fingers to reply texts, mind to think, heart to help and shoulder to cry off.

Being my friend cant always get money from me but when it comes to lending shoulder, i will be the first choice for you.

Life is always full with challenges and examinations, try to solve it and not giving up may lead you to a better place.  :)

Shalom. Baii.

Monday

Really thanks a lot to God that make me able to wake up this morning. 

I was so excited when waking up in the morning and turn up in the school. I met my so-called long-lost ( one week ) friends. :P 

Thanks to God once again that he enable me to reach school safely and peacefully. 

Found one website, its a Tumblr website. 

and it is super duper ubber awesome.

Heart In God Tumblr.

You will like it. :) 

Shalom. GOD bless all.

Nooneknowsme.

I'm too despite to post my feelings on facebook so I blog indeed.

Random post just to boooost out my feelings.

Life is being more complicated day by day. Through the toughness of life, I realize that everyone only know my name but not my story. This remind me of her. 

She is someone who I respect the most. But indeed, she thought she knows me well like wth. 

She thought that my family is so rich that she can just cancel my name in the list of the netbook that the government is giving out. SHE told me, ''you're too rich for that so I canceled your name in the list.''

I was so angry like ASDFGHJKL, but my mom asked me to forgive her. Maybe she's innocent or perhaps she just look at the NAME of mine? 

alright, I forgive her but still, my heart still can't really calm when I get nearer to her. HAIH.

Dear anybody else, 

I just want you to know that you're not me and you won't know what problems I'm facing and what my life is. I won't know yours either. 

I'm the type of person hardly have friends. I had just open my heart this two years, to knowing more friends outside. But sometimes I overacted and made peoples disliked me. HAIH. I know. I'm overacting. 

I've so many problems so solve but yet too little time and money. IDK much. 

I yelled His name whenever I feel that He is here with me. I know.

I know He will lead me and show me the way. I know..

Put Everything in God's Hands! "Cast your cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall." Psalm 55:22

and..

shalomm. baii. :')

ISCF CAMP. #2

and it ends peacefully with cleaning the hall. And I'm carrying the chairs and the guys are amazed of me. :P I'm not stronger than boys, but I have to be.

Oh Lord, thanks for listening to our prayer and had grant us peace and calmness for the group presentation.

On the sunday morning which is the second day of the iscf camp in st. Thomas school, I'm so afraid and nervous to communicating with the boys, maybe this is because boys lead the majority of the team? :O and theres only 3 girls including me. 

I prayed to God for grant me the opportunity to speaks my mind out. At last, we concludes our presentation with band singing at first, follow by drama acting conducted by ME, Lyndon and Jackson and narrated by Johan. After that will be two songs for Praise and Worships. As a team, we exchanged our ideas for choosing songs. But we give the most respect to the band, leads by Clifford (singer), Jordan (basses), Maximillian ( guitarist) and Reddison (drummer).

I was so glad that my group, the GREEN group can form a band that can sing well and play well ! :D
; we chose ONE WAY for the first band singing, and followed by Here I Am To Worship after the drama and How Great Is Our God for the last song.

For the drama part, ME as the main character which is a not very beautiful girl and has just enter puberty (LOLLOLLOLL), the only book of mine is BIBLE. My costume is the themed T-shirt of the camp and put on a black dotted white scarf and a fake spec to make me looks more nerdy.
And theres the two CUTEEE boys, Jackson as Lu-C-Fur and Lyndon as Sat-an. Trying to bringing me to the dark side of the work which is the HELL club. They asked me to try for drinking and smoking.
When I come out from the club, singing Last Friday Night with Beer, Cigarettes and yeahh my scarf.
*I keep on wondering WHY I can be so funny on the stage* #foreveralone.
Alright and the Last Friday Night makes peoples laugh. :P
I found my BiBLE on the floor and theres the holy spirit asking me to pick up the BIBLE and read it. I then throw everything including scarf, beer, cigarette and yes, my fake spec; I quickly read the BIBLE just like I'm hungry for God's word. Lu-C-Fur and Sat-an come and try to influence me that the BIBLE is not good. Suddenly the BIBLE shines, and I shine the BIBLE at them. They lose and then run away..
I was asked to knee and shout for God's forgiveness. I did it and.. Start the MUSIC BABEHH. :P

I.WILL.UPLOAD.THE.VIDEO.OF.ME.ACTING.ONE.DAY.

And we had our ending with the last-last-last minute slogan,
"G-R-E-N, G-R-E-N, G-R-E-E-N, green, Green, GREEN !! WUUhaa !!"

For the minute, I wanted to thank everyone in Green Team that always keep my suggestions on mind and doesn't mind to change the plan for my suggestions. Thank you!!
-Clifford, Max, Jordan, Reddison, Johan, Jackson, Lyndon, Nigel, Stephanie, Nadia and Aloysius! :D -

Memories of the day. :)

Walking around st.thom and found this mirror, ''I look awesome todayy!!'' 

They have duh aquarium !! 

this is coool. 

while listening to the talk from Pastor Yusuf.

Aloysius, Group leader. and HEHEHH, PRIZES ! :D

Me of the dayy. :)

GREEEEEN group. excluded jordan and stephanie, :( incomplete family.

Shine for christ. :)

I thank Lord that I have an opportunity to join a camp like this within the last year of secondary school. I had regretted so much that I didn't join these activities since I was form 1. I encourage you all students to join these cause you will have a lots of fun. :)

God Bless. Baii.

ISCF CAMP. #1

And yeah, this is the first time for me to join such activity like this. This year ISCF camp is held in st. thom school. and the school is shooooo duhh big and you can even lost in it. Alright, now would be the problem. OUR group, GREEN group had to make a presentation tomorrow. Its under the theme : shine for christ. For 10 to 20 minutes. Each group have to do it. UGHH, my group just only have 2 girls including me. and yeahh, 9 of them are BOYS. HEH. >D 

so, they decided to sing all along the presentation time. Me and the other ONLY girl, STEPHANIE, had blown some ideas about drama + singing. Only few support the drama part. But at that time, I really don’t care so much, I just wanna do the drama partttt. But now, I regret everything. 

First of all, I’m not the leader of the team. Even a vice leader.

secondly, only 4 peoples including me and 3 YOUNGG boys gonna do the drama part. so the….. haih, NOW i’m so confusing whether I’m going to do the drama part or not. HAIHH, WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW. NO one to discuss to. :(

I pray that dear Lord Jesus would lead me all the way round.. AMENN!!