Monday

Really thanks a lot to God that make me able to wake up this morning. 

I was so excited when waking up in the morning and turn up in the school. I met my so-called long-lost ( one week ) friends. :P 

Thanks to God once again that he enable me to reach school safely and peacefully. 

Found one website, its a Tumblr website. 

and it is super duper ubber awesome.

Heart In God Tumblr.

You will like it. :) 

Shalom. GOD bless all.

Hates.

Get free from everything.

I almost die last on last friday night. under his hand. the man I have to love but I had already hated him to the max. 

He was so drunk and I was waiting him to fetch me from tuition. I waited him alone. My phone credit expired. I cant contact anyone. I thought everything will be fine like usual. but this time my wish is not granted and something unusual is happened. 

He drive so fast and he stop so fast. I can't describe. UGHH. He stop infront of my tuition center and was yelling that he is very sick. he can't even drive. he drive like snake. yeahh seriously. he is so smelly. the smell of cigarettes and alcohols. leading me to puke and nervous. i am soo not secure. i scared that i will die in next second when i open my eyes. im so scared that my hands is freeze and trying so hard to close my eyes everytime he stops suddenly and at the turning point. im so scared that i prayed to god and ask him to save me from this situation. im so scared that i die and my mom and cheryl and amanda got no one to take care of them. im so scared. 

when i arrived home, im so glad that i didnt die. i didnt get injured. i didnt get any police chasing us. ughh. thanks to god. 

i keep wondering why he needs to be so drunk?

He cant even remember how he fetch me home on last friday night. 

his car plate is missing.

he is wondering whether he knock people and cause them to die.

he said he wont drink again.

he said this more than TRICE. 

alright, 

its his birthday. 3rd of sept.

the whole family, too hate him. doesnt want to wish him anything. we dont even have breakfast or lunch nor dinner together. i just dont wanna meet him. i know that im not suppose to do this but i hate him. i have to forgive him but i have not enough faith. im trying hard to forgive but yet i cant. honestly, im planning for run away from here. run away from him and everything over here. start a new life with only mom, cheryl and amanda. my only family LEFT.

probably if i didnt keep believing, today will be funeral of us. die in car accident or etc. 

you had done so much things that made us hate you. you know what is it, please. if you still love us, show it. 

i got nothing left to say.

happy birthday, most hated dad.

k baii. chaww.

i hope i can love you again.

That should be me.

AWWW, i can't say that loudly. Cause I really truly loved you.

Some bitchs, err, i mean THE BITCH. please shut up your dirty mouth and please keep my place clean whenever you pass through me. And, I really look down on you. :) I never block you in facebook, you blocked me first before I get to block you. okay, my life are more life-ful when you're not bitching around me. BUT, now you unblock me. wtf ? then, whats the main purpose you blocked me before ?

Bitch is always bitch. Once a pelacur, forever a CHICKEN. :D

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Sorry for being rude. Thats the things I could say. OR else she would be too over. 

I'm still okay. LAWL.

I got sorethroat D: and its getting more painful. I got inflammation on ma throat.wtfffffffffff.

Its super painful !! I can't even swallow a thing. even my saliva.

God please save !! :( 

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.. some nice pictures that talks my moods. enjoyyyyyyyy.

Dream , Is always beautiful.

Oh, yeah ♥

And honestly,

so true. :)

and ended my post with, 

another awe-som-e song by Justin Bieber. <3 

Chaw, peace. /|\. :) 

-Cat

Boring-ness.

Seems like better to go Tumblr. for blogging. At least there can find a series of nice pictures.

seems like meaningless posting my posts here...

K Thanks BAii.

LOL. JK. 

My life was being good so far.

Daily busy with school, homeworks, working time, sleep, eat, play around and making trying to linked to my besties that won't left me alone when we went for outing. 

Amoii and Aboii, i called them. I met them from where I work. Yeaa they treats me like I'm the main character. I just love them. They never ever leave me alone when we went out. Seriously.

THEY NEVER. :D

I'm try not to hate, but I really hates peoples let me alone when they ajak me go out. Its just like, ''why are you ajak me here and drop me alone ?!''

Totally wasting of time. 

So, please don't invite me go out just for sharing another share of money. And them drop me alone watching you all laughing, watching movie without my share of ticket.

Its just like, ignored.

okay stops on this topic.

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My life were a mystery. I can be a movie producer, a movie editor and even a movie actress.

I knew that I'm not hot and prettayy but I got my confidence to do those things.

Yeaa and I did it. But something gone wrong. aiya, blame me ='/

Sorry but I do feel loneliness. Lonely, need to hold myself when I'm falling cause theres no one for you.

Lonely, need to handle everything by myself cause theres no one for you.

Lonely, need to hold my hands by myself to being less warmness.

Sorry I just hate being alone.

='/

Strong.. SIGH.

Currently addicted to Tumblr for nice pictures, Amei's song '都什麼時候了', Justin Bieber 'Pray'.

Chaw, Praying for another better day..

-Cat

painforjapan.

Japan dead found were increased to over 10k..

Am gotta find a way to help !!

No matter in money or humanese states ! :(

I cant find any foundation created in Kuching, Sarawak in MALAYSIA for Japan.

Thats so saddddddddd.

and, today is White Valentine.

White Valentines. So what? Its better to use the money that used to buy roses and chocolates to donate to Japan and those needs.

Japan !! :'( I've been praying for whole of the day. I'm not a Japan-lover but now I've the opportunity to help / BUT THERES NO WAY I CAN DO THAN PRAY.

:((

God please bless Japan and stop the disaster !!

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Here's a prayer from Priscilla's blog. Am so touch.

Dear Almighty God, in the book of Revelation reads, “I looked and saw a great earthquake”. Dear Lord is the world ending? Is this a way or is this a warning You’re trying to tell the sinners to repent? Dear Lord, if the world is ending, than I Your faithful servant will be happily accept it. Wouldn’t I complain anymore that I will not have the chance to see my future Lord, Wouldn’t I complain anymore oh Lord. If this is the end, than this servant will gladly follow through. Will I stop sinning oh Lord. Give this servant patience and knowledge Lord. This servant is weak Lord. Oh Lord, this servant wish her sins are all forgiven for Lord I know You are mighty, I know You are able to forgive me, I know the kindness You show. I know it comes deep through the core of Your heart Lord. So therefore, this servant promise to not follow the satan paths anymore. I pray in Jesus name, Amen ♥

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Dear Lord, there are thousands, millions, countless prayers for Japan. Please, hear our sincere prayer.

Please, prayforjapan.