參見，九把刀。

九把刀，一個瘋狂的網路創作家。
他，徹底顛覆了我對傳統小說的印象。

他很骯髒，寫了那些不三不四的東西，可是就是寫道心坎裡去；
他很小人，寫了一大堆他娘娘的粗話，可是這就是我們年輕人幹的事；

他，是我們這一代的宗師、偉人。
他把我們腦袋裡胡思亂想的東西都寫了出來。

他的文筆，不是你我能下評論的。

最近又愛上了九把刀。
原諒我的無知，又被那個九把刀叔叔片得團團轉 哈哈哈

對了，我明天就要走了 〒▽〒
看來朋友們今天的註冊及飛機和巴士都很順風
我明天也是一樣吧？ (￣∀￣;)
希望不要有什麼東西忘記帶才好 ╮(╯_╰)╭

我每天都記載當天所作的事情，回來告訴人，在裡面到底做些什麼事
不然我怕他們都會像我一樣懵懵懂懂的什麼都不知道
那種感覺真的很可怕 m(_ _)m

還有還有

今晚會和媽媽去吃我愛吃的東西 ；當時餞別吧 TT
在那邊只有星期日能出，所以
我要吃豬肉大餐！！！！！！
一天沒豬肉我已經beh tahan 了 (￣∀￣;)
今晚吃夠夠！！

閃人去收拾東西。

要想我哦。

終。xx

fucked up.

I dont know why. I just feel so lonely inside. 

I post something in facebook and no one would notice and give me some attention. hah. this world is so realistic. 

I wonder why no boy love me. 

I wonder why Catherine no boyfriend.

I wonder why no boy i can love.

I wonder why..

i really fuckin holding my tears. 

I wonder why.

I dont know why I just think off wanna cry.

and now i know why that if cry out can make me less moody.

no one wanna talk with me.

no one wanna know whats in my mind.

im so fucking emo.

anyone please smile at me and make me seems like a breathing human.

now i kow why Juliana can delete her facebook statuses after sometime she posted it, if no one liked it.

no one would want to know what i had been treatten. NO one. would.

i apologize to God but yet im still so fuckin damnning emo.

alright im gonna kill myself deep inside.

I had deactivated my 2 out of 3 facebook accounts. 

I have no such time to manage all and i'm wasting my time over there. 

7 of September. 

Today its not the day for peoples around me. 

They were angry, get scolded, disappointments, arguing, fighting, crying, punching... 

I feel bad.

I can only be the listener when they tell their probs to me. 

I cant give any advise because im not a good adviser. 

I cant torture them because im not good at it.

I cant counsel them because im not a counselor.

I only lend them my eyes to see their texts, fingers to reply texts, mind to think, heart to help and shoulder to cry off.

Being my friend cant always get money from me but when it comes to lending shoulder, i will be the first choice for you.

Life is always full with challenges and examinations, try to solve it and not giving up may lead you to a better place.  :)

Shalom. Baii.

Hates.

Get free from everything.

I almost die last on last friday night. under his hand. the man I have to love but I had already hated him to the max. 

He was so drunk and I was waiting him to fetch me from tuition. I waited him alone. My phone credit expired. I cant contact anyone. I thought everything will be fine like usual. but this time my wish is not granted and something unusual is happened. 

He drive so fast and he stop so fast. I can't describe. UGHH. He stop infront of my tuition center and was yelling that he is very sick. he can't even drive. he drive like snake. yeahh seriously. he is so smelly. the smell of cigarettes and alcohols. leading me to puke and nervous. i am soo not secure. i scared that i will die in next second when i open my eyes. im so scared that my hands is freeze and trying so hard to close my eyes everytime he stops suddenly and at the turning point. im so scared that i prayed to god and ask him to save me from this situation. im so scared that i die and my mom and cheryl and amanda got no one to take care of them. im so scared. 

when i arrived home, im so glad that i didnt die. i didnt get injured. i didnt get any police chasing us. ughh. thanks to god. 

i keep wondering why he needs to be so drunk?

He cant even remember how he fetch me home on last friday night. 

his car plate is missing.

he is wondering whether he knock people and cause them to die.

he said he wont drink again.

he said this more than TRICE. 

alright, 

its his birthday. 3rd of sept.

the whole family, too hate him. doesnt want to wish him anything. we dont even have breakfast or lunch nor dinner together. i just dont wanna meet him. i know that im not suppose to do this but i hate him. i have to forgive him but i have not enough faith. im trying hard to forgive but yet i cant. honestly, im planning for run away from here. run away from him and everything over here. start a new life with only mom, cheryl and amanda. my only family LEFT.

probably if i didnt keep believing, today will be funeral of us. die in car accident or etc. 

you had done so much things that made us hate you. you know what is it, please. if you still love us, show it. 

i got nothing left to say.

happy birthday, most hated dad.

k baii. chaww.

i hope i can love you again.

IDKnow.

SHEETZ.

Its been a long time for blogging. ;x

Spending too much time on Facebook and Tumblr. 

Been mess up for love and friends. So much things happened and I'm thinkibng how to face it. 

Friend shouldn't be the one left you behind when you need someone else. 

Friend shouldn't be the one left you for their BOY/GIRLfriend instead listen to us. 

If the friendship can broke so easily, IT doesn't name as friendship. ITS FRIENDSHITZ.

Okay, I apologize if I caused any convenience.

I've learnt how to keep everything inside instead of showing it out dramatically. 

This happens when I'm soooo excited 'bout something and I wanted to tell someone 'bout that, they ignore me by talking other things or talking to other peoples OR IGNORE me straight before I get the chance to say anything. #foreveralone.

AND AND,

I extremely DISLIKE the so-called-friend, use MY name to hang out and ACTUALLY they are abandon you aside AS they wanted to GO OUT for meeting their BOY/GIRLfriend. 

I was like, WHAT TEH HEWL you ask for hangout when your aim is actually DATING, WHILE I'M ALONE OVER THERE DOING NOTHING ? 

How would you? HAHAHAh. 

+ I Don't Give A Fuck if you dislike me. 

But I DO Give A Damn if you talk bad behind me. 

AND I DO GIVE A FUCKIN' SHITZ ON YOUR FACE IF I CAUGHT YOU DO SO. 

hahah. I'm so bad as you can't imagine. :) 

BTW, some random strangers, I'm not as friendly as you all think. 

SO, stop judge me before you know me and anything else.

:D
mlm F*CKKK.

okay,

I met Grace for the second time. *FINALLY*.

She is sooooooooooooo small. But I'm so sad bout it when the cute-ness of her became one of her problems. :( haih, what to do, life always unfair tho. 

:')

And FYI, the first time we met was at AHPek's house when CNY'11. 

and I had a family day trip with my FAMILIES ! :D, after a long hard working time, finally we get the holidays to spend with. Its so cooool.

We went to Matang Wildlife Center.

mom and Amanda

This looks fat. But this is ME. :)

Amanda, mama, papa and Cheryl.

And we went to the river, and of course, SWIMMMM.

Guess which is me ? :P -NEHHH, the MIDDLE one. LOLL

FOOOOOOD ! -I looks FAT, #fml.

And...

LOL, Amanda-the-beauty-lover. 

. 

.

On Sunday, I skipped tuition ;p

Mom drive me, Cheryl and Amanda to Damai, Santubong and Buntal for refreshing trip. Its just a short-short trip even though I didn't TOUCH sea water. #FML. *sigh* I miss beach so much ! 

 

NAA, lazy for uploading photos. :P its time for me to tumblring ! Goooood looooong byeeeeee Bloggerrrr. :P btw, follow me on tumblr, 

#my tumblr.

Tadaaaaaaa. 

-Life is just miserable, theres no undo nor return. So, live like theres no tomorrow. :)

Boring-ness.

Seems like better to go Tumblr. for blogging. At least there can find a series of nice pictures.

seems like meaningless posting my posts here...

K Thanks BAii.

LOL. JK. 

My life was being good so far.

Daily busy with school, homeworks, working time, sleep, eat, play around and making trying to linked to my besties that won't left me alone when we went for outing. 

Amoii and Aboii, i called them. I met them from where I work. Yeaa they treats me like I'm the main character. I just love them. They never ever leave me alone when we went out. Seriously.

THEY NEVER. :D

I'm try not to hate, but I really hates peoples let me alone when they ajak me go out. Its just like, ''why are you ajak me here and drop me alone ?!''

Totally wasting of time. 

So, please don't invite me go out just for sharing another share of money. And them drop me alone watching you all laughing, watching movie without my share of ticket.

Its just like, ignored.

okay stops on this topic.

-------Ended-------

My life were a mystery. I can be a movie producer, a movie editor and even a movie actress.

I knew that I'm not hot and prettayy but I got my confidence to do those things.

Yeaa and I did it. But something gone wrong. aiya, blame me ='/

Sorry but I do feel loneliness. Lonely, need to hold myself when I'm falling cause theres no one for you.

Lonely, need to handle everything by myself cause theres no one for you.

Lonely, need to hold my hands by myself to being less warmness.

Sorry I just hate being alone.

='/

Strong.. SIGH.

Currently addicted to Tumblr for nice pictures, Amei's song '都什麼時候了', Justin Bieber 'Pray'.

Chaw, Praying for another better day..

-Cat

painforjapan.

Japan dead found were increased to over 10k..

Am gotta find a way to help !!

No matter in money or humanese states ! :(

I cant find any foundation created in Kuching, Sarawak in MALAYSIA for Japan.

Thats so saddddddddd.

and, today is White Valentine.

White Valentines. So what? Its better to use the money that used to buy roses and chocolates to donate to Japan and those needs.

Japan !! :'( I've been praying for whole of the day. I'm not a Japan-lover but now I've the opportunity to help / BUT THERES NO WAY I CAN DO THAN PRAY.

:((

God please bless Japan and stop the disaster !!

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Here's a prayer from Priscilla's blog. Am so touch.

Dear Almighty God, in the book of Revelation reads, “I looked and saw a great earthquake”. Dear Lord is the world ending? Is this a way or is this a warning You’re trying to tell the sinners to repent? Dear Lord, if the world is ending, than I Your faithful servant will be happily accept it. Wouldn’t I complain anymore that I will not have the chance to see my future Lord, Wouldn’t I complain anymore oh Lord. If this is the end, than this servant will gladly follow through. Will I stop sinning oh Lord. Give this servant patience and knowledge Lord. This servant is weak Lord. Oh Lord, this servant wish her sins are all forgiven for Lord I know You are mighty, I know You are able to forgive me, I know the kindness You show. I know it comes deep through the core of Your heart Lord. So therefore, this servant promise to not follow the satan paths anymore. I pray in Jesus name, Amen ♥

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Dear Lord, there are thousands, millions, countless prayers for Japan. Please, hear our sincere prayer.

Please, prayforjapan.

International-Prayer.

Tsunami attacked Japan.

8.9 magnitude earthquake. It just happens in few minutes.

Thousands of people lost their lives. Over thousandss injury. Countless LOST.

 The wave. 10meters high. Can you imagine? Its just high like a few floors high building covers on your housing area, the school you went to, the garden you run with your brothers, the field you slept on and counted the stars...

Its just disappear in few minutes. NO, it should be second.

those places disappears in few seconds.

Everything changed to water. SEA water.

Natural gas explode causes fire.

Japan now is suffer from water and fire.

The two matter we are very familiar with.

They are suffering us ! :(

Japan is a high-educational country. They teached their citizens to have god manner. 

Even they are suffering from very serious disaster, they still have their good manner.

Firstly,  They still queue up infront of the public phone stand.

The train station is stop functioning. There is no noisy sounds and messy condition.

They follow the rules without other telling them. 

Normal school, are opened as the temporarily place that is save to stay.

Women and children are the one who served first.

Even there is no train functioning, they walk home. Even it takes time.

Thats what Japanese do.

Pray. for Japan.

Pray. Hope it ends.