anger. ?

gahh, it shouldn't be anger. 

its jealousy.

they say jealousy kills.

it does.

*cough cough* 

im still sick in sore throat and coughing.

everyday before i sleep i'll perform the infinity coughing show.

TROLOLOL.

from people's reaction, 

i became a very hot temper person.

DOyouevenrealize?

hehehehh

a bit a bit nia angry.

a bit a bit nia quarrel with people..

and i was like, whats wrong with me?

...

curse? or.. karma?

never..

hmm idk how to say but..

i really feel confused at many points..

i was influenced by mom for not having a boyfie.

because i thought man cannot be trusted but yet i found a guy who is 27 years old and he treated me good.

ughh, should be saying, he treats everyone nicely.

he is an awesome friend.

at first i was sympathy towards his family background and so on..

but now, he always told me that something that i doesnt expect a MAN will say.

llike, getting married.

he say, its a happiness and a push on life for man to have wife and the little ones waiting for him after work.

'cause its been so far i don't want to believe in man again since 27 March.

when i left him.

i feel depressed and i wanted to get in love with someone else.

to have a REAL relationship.

everytime they ask me for advice in love, i couldn't really answer because i never had those REAL things before.

hahah.

funny. this is very funny.

im a girl who was always saying not to fall in love and have no faith in man but yet i wanted to fall in love again.

such a hypocrite.

btw, perhaps some of the wedding videos encourages me to get married. ? hahaha.

total random-ness.

currently busy-ing with our once-in-a-lifetime class dinner.

its gonna run in a smooth way.

like a wedding. farewell wedding.

ughh emo*

i want to slim down.

i hate my fat body,

im fat. 

and im not pretty.

yet not ugly.

baii.